So at the beginning of October, I was feeling off. I couldn't sleep at night because I was unbelievably HOT ALL THE TIME. Which is strange for me, because I am usually freezing most of the time. I also avoid getting myself overheated because it brings on symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis. However, it seemed I was lucky because I wasn't feeling shaky or unbalanced like I get in the summer. I was also pretty grouchy and my boobs were hurting. (Sorry TMI). This is completely unlike me with PMS, but still just felt "different". I am on a lot of scary meds and steroids normally so I figured I should test just in case before doing my weekly steroid injection. I tried to be sneaky so I actually took the test while Alex was in the shower. Because I didn't want him to know I was doing it, when it didn't immediately turn positive, I threw it out. (Usually I get really dark lines, really early in pregnancy) So I figured it was negative, and did my shot (WHOOPS). Later that day, I went to dump the trash and I noticed a faint positive line on the test... but I figured it was an evap line that can happen after a pregnancy test sits for a while. I haven't ever got one but I have read about them. But I thought it was curious....
Four days later I was due for my period. It hadn't shown and I was getting a horrible migraine. I didn't want to take anything just in case (my migraine meds are actually anti-seizure meds and they are really bad during pregnancy). So I made Alex go get another test. I can still remember the look of disgust he had on his face at the thought of buying another pregnancy test. He brought it home and I took it immediately. I was in the bathroom and Jocelyn burst in just like she always does. This was the convo:
Me:Guess what? I am gonna have a baby Joce Bear
Jocelyn: Yeah, a baby. LIKE THE KITTY
Me: Well lets hope its not like the kitty, then I would have a lot of explaining to do..
Jocelyn: *puzzled expression* and then *nervous, confused laugh* LOL
So I went out and showed Alex and he burst into a huge grin. It was great. We were super thrilled. And now here I am... 13 1/2 weeks pregnant :)
I am incredibly excited about this pregnancy. I was hoping to get one more opportunity to experience this before my MS got to bad and I couldn't go without my meds. I know that this might not seem like the best time, but for us, it really is perfect. I have never felt so secure in my relationship with Alex. We have our own home, plans for the future and a wedding in the works. I know a lot of people are worried about me, but honestly I am doing fabulous.
MS and pregnancy is actually pretty cool. MS goes into almost complete remission while pregnant. I have had better balance the last three months than I have in the last two years! HOWEVER, because my back muscles were weakened before I got pregnant, I am dealing with a lot of back and hip pain. Boo. I grunt like a 75 yr old man when I have to bend over lol. Poor Alex, he has to deal with me. But, my depression has been doing FABULOUS. I feel fantastic and happy and excited!
This pregnancy is going by so quickly. I didn't have too much morning sickness and that has subsided now. I do cry alot and get really tired, which stinks. My nose is like a bloodhound, I can smell EVERYTHING. And my gag reflux is still pretty sensitive. But I am hangin in there!
I will try to keep you all updated as I get more info and of course, when I get more ultrasounds. I will post those pictures on FB too :)
Okay, woo.... time for a picture, yes?.
Here is me, last week at 12 weeks pregnant. Try to disregard my lack of makeup and crappy hair. I am too tired to worry about that these days!
